pain
it's the ache of a heart
broken into pieces
a sledge before me
temptation rises
gripping and releasing
sorrow descending
grave meanings useless
comfort not found
quikening pulse
turbulance ascending
cries around you
you pay no heed
the black is there
always there
never leaving
never ceasing
blood flows cold
tears pending
a whisper tells
never can you go back
time is near
a sledge before me
when you looked me in the eye
i never wanted to look away
despair and pain flow freely
from these wounds you so carelessly inflicted
do i even matter to you at all?
am i even in your heart?
the way you treat me
leaves me empty inside
but whenever you glance my way
i lose all my breath
if all you wanted was to tread
on my freely given heart
you got what you intended
you leave me on this sleepless road
while you toy with my love
as if you were the fates themselves
toying with the mortal life
i hope you feel this much power
when i become one of the fates
am i there and son't know it?
is here despair and lonliness?
does time pass slower?
or does everything else speed up?
are the colours distorted?
or is the rest of the world?
has it all stopped?
or just gone away?
is what i feel real?
or another blind emotion?
do i dare test the waters to find it fake?
or stay here all alone and think it either way?
jealousy is a devious thing
starts from your mind abd ends up at your heart
a kind of pain that flows through you like a river
a dam that becuase of it, tears can fall
all this can lead you to misery
a long tedious road
it will pass like everything else does
but until that time
i'll sit here and wait
let it eat at me until i can't take it anymore
and i break
shatter
and fall
i was sitting in class just the other day and i noticed a poster of a waterfall....the poster read "destiny is not to be waited for : it is to be achieved...and it made me think of you....a lot of things make me think of you..
sunsets and sunrises...darkness and light even make me think of you...sumhow i kno it's not the same with you....i don't plague your thoughts like you do mine...to me, you are everything...to you, i am nothing..
all this pain in me when i see you and you don't notice...my eyes a normal colour can seen to be on fire when you walk right thro me...my feelings don't matter to you...while i guard yours dearly..
your voice
tears stain your face and i cannot bear to see them there
it pains me to know that i am their cause
i can't help what i feel
if i could i'd just walk away
sumthing inside of me must have found sumthing in you
i can't just wak away from sumthing so close
that i could eventualy lose at the toss of a dime
cancer cannot survive without a host
then i guess i'm going down
seems no matter how much pain we both cause
we're still standing
no matter how much we don't want to be
i seem to lean on you whenever i have worries
even tho i feel you don't care
sumtimes i wish you'd open up and share
because i can't go on knowing the pain inside
wasted time on loving you..
wasted time..
wasted time on sumone who won't love you as much as i..
in my fantasy, you are asleep beside me..
i feel you breathe.
if only i could be there for you
the one you make love to